.....yesterday we had to go back to B'ham for a follow up visit. Not a whole lot to discuss other than he still says that she has some tightness in her muscles and he believes that moving forward with the Botox injections will help. So we have scheduled the procedure for April 13th. I have always been sort of reserved about the procedure, but when she broke her wrist we were worked in with one of the doctors at Huntsville Pediatrics and he was telling me that his parents get the injections for an unknown reason that I didn't ask, but he said that we would see improvements right away, so that sort of changed my outlook on things.
Don't get me wrong we don't want to get in the way of the Lord healing her, but if there's something that she will benefit from then I want her to have it. As her mom I want to make sure I'm doing everything I can to help her. I guess I thought doing this was pretty much telling the Lord that I didn't have the faith that He was going to heal her, but not long ago I heard someone else who has had an accident say that he wants to trust the Lord, but if they were to call him tomorrow to say that they had a cure for him to walk again that he would pack his bags and go. He said who wouldn't? So that kind of put things in to perspective for me that I want to do all I can to help her get back to the way she was before, but I also want her to know that the reason she is still here today is because of the Lord and that He is the one that has brought her this far and I know He will continue to bless her and help her along the way.
I was reading a blog the other day and her little boy has a disability and she was saying that other moms that she knew were signing their kids up for t-ball and it made her want to get discouraged, but instead she decided to look for something that her son could do. It just made all the sense to me. Kensley can pretty much do what she wants, but she has limitations and may require some assistance. I've just really had a hard time with that lately. You sit back and watch all the other kids interact and see that your child can't do that or that she just doesn't fit in the same way anymore. It hurts so bad and I seem to have had many breakdowns over it lately, but reading her blog just really helped me. So instead of feeling sorry for her that she can't do like the others, I'm going to try and start looking at what she can do.
We are loving this beautiful weather that the Lord has blessed us with the past few days. I love Spring and can't wait for it to stick around. Hope everyone has a good day!
To the Child I Carried After A Loss
6 months ago